Posted 12:22 AM by the violent one
so... now that I've decided to go ahead with "Birdbath" for the command performance, I'm diving back into Velma.

The funny thing is that it was really really *nice* to put her aside for a while. I really felt like I had plateaud a bit with her! I kept doing the same thing over and over. I just wasn't 'getting' the idea of being at a different place than what i thought she was.... okay, that's a vague statement. I mean that bringing in the weight and brevity of having killed my mother just wasn't there.

After doing something as different as "Two rooms" even for a week gave me a bit of a break so I could come back to it afresh. It's kind of like what emily said the other day when she came to speak: she does as much research as she can.. and then throws it away to see what 'sticks.' Well, I don't think I had thrown out a lot of my initial perception of Velma, so I got stuck. Now, that I was able truly 'throw it out' I feel like I am layering my characters... I feel like i got the physicality down for Velma and now I can layer on the 'burden.'

as a quick sidenote (to serve my schizo brain) i think velma two weeks ago was coming out a lot more 'happy go lucky' because that's the only way i felt i could 'justify' the physicality or that's what type of body language I associated with 'fidgety' and 'nervous.'

also, i was sick of velma too, two weeks ago... just hated her; i wanted to move on. now two weeks later, i see SO MUCH i can learn from her! and I'm pretty psyched to be working on it a few more times this week!